The end of "love drama"

Suddenly I found out that I am paying a lot for keeping the "love drama" or the "love fairytale" in my mind.. I don't know how long I can still keep it, or maybe someday, when i have to pay too much for that, I will have to give up. The thing is, seems i dont get anything back anyway..

Maybe it is a bad choice for being a kid or .. maybe i should have a harder skin instead.. or maybe, the best is just to have the "nice, calm vacation" instead of the "love drama"

*sorry, probably my post here doesnt make much sense.. but please forgive me, i ve been up for the whole night for aruging (more than 8 hours) with some ppl!*